Feelings

I love it when things improve. The house, though still messy, is getting better everyday. There are only a few boxes in each room, and that makes us all so relaxed. Stress has been high with all the mess, but with every box emptied, I feel more at peace.

My MCAS flare has stopped, for the most part. It may have just changed focus. Now, my blood sugar has been dropping. So, I've had some dizzy spells and vision blurring. I'm doing my best to pace myself and that's finally working. I hope that I can remember to do that every day.

Having a foot that is disabled, even temporarily, is such a downer. I still fight depression, because I don't know that I'll be able to ever walk without pain. I'm only on my feet for the times it will not hurt too badly.

I can always look forward to months in the future when I might have a better outcome. There's no way to know. We learned that only about 33% of Talus replacement surgeries are completely successful. I can only hope and pray that I'll be one of those.

Moving, while being chronically ill, is so painful! Since I knew that we had a deadline to move, I worked as hard as possible. It was a kind of machine existence for a while. I just went through the motions, trying to pack and then unpack.

I'm thankful that now I can have feelings of warmth and happiness. I love that feeling that I'm home to stay. It's nice when a home starts to feel homey. With curtains, I'm trying my best to create a place that brings a smile.

Life is too short to live a beige life. Since I needed curtains, I found curtains with cheerful colors, prints that made me smile. It's easier to press forward with pain when you can take your breaks in a room that is warm and pretty.

The little things really are the big things.

@2025, copyright Lisa Ehrman

Disclaimer: I'm not a medical expert. This post contains my experiences and opinions and is not meant to be taken as medical advice. If you have a medical concern, please consult your personal physician.